After much panicked driving about, I managed to get to Jess's wedding. It was a nice, somewhat quick and nontraditional affair, but none of the meaning was compromised. Gwen was there, so I socialized a bit with her and also talked a lot to Jess's uncle about school and future plans (or theorized future plans). Then I had to leave early but I made sure to get a dance or two in with Gwen before leaving, and that was nice.

I'm twenty-one
So far it's fun
Slightly Intoxicated
That wasn't procrastinated

1) Initials: EAD
2) Name someone with the same birthday as you: Morgan Spurlock, that intellectually dishonest asshat.
3) Last thing you ate: A bag of caramels.
4) For or against same sex marriage: For it.
5) Are you homophobic: Nope
6) Do you still watch cartoons on Saturday morning: Hard to when I don't get up before 1PM
7) Do you believe in God: Agnostic
8) How many U.S. states have you been to: Seven
9) How many of the U.S states have you lived in: One
10) Ever lived outside of the US: Nope.
11) Name something you like physically about yourself: hmm...my eyes i guess
12) Something non-physical you like about yourself: Ambition
13) What is your dad's name: Dennis
14) What is your dream car: Black 3rd Generation Pontiac Firebird (1985-1992)
15) If you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go: Japan maybe?
16) Favorite type of food: Chicken
17) Favorite holiday: Easter, because of how pagan it is despite being Christian lol.
19) What illegal things have you done: I could tell you but I don't think the statute of limitations has expired on any of them
20) Where would you want to go on a first date: Dinner and a Movie...or maybe a walk on the beach and then get naked somewhere semi-private, depends on how randy they are :P
21) Would you date the person who posted this before you: if she wasn't taken yeah
22) Has anyone ever sang or played for you personally: Umm...don't think so
23) Have you ever cried for no reason: Yep.
24) Do you like Bush: Not on a girl and not in the white house.
25) Have you ever bungee jumped: nope
26) Have you ever white-water rafted: nope
27) Has anyone ten years older than you ever hit on you: PFFFFT
28) Last person you hugged: hmmm...my mom maybe?
29) Have you met a real redneck: Yep
30) How is the weather right now: Cold and slightly cloudy
31) Song you're listening to right now: something I wrote i guess
32) What are your current favorite songs: Stuff by CKY, Rush, or Slipknot
33) What was the last movie you watched: Swordfish
34) Do you wear contacts: no
35) Where was the last place you went besides your house: My Dorm! A-HAHAHHAHAHAHAH
36) What are you afraid of: Being alone
37) What's the most expensive thing you have ever done for a friend: Paid off someone's cell phone bill
38) How many pets do you have: Two cats
39) Have you ever loved someone: Yes, though that hasn't gotten me anywhere
40) What really turns you on: Yes wouldn't you like to know that? Oh wait, you do want to know that. Very well. Skirts and Stockings. hehe.
41) What do you usually order from Starbucks: FUCK STARBUCKS AND FUCK THE ELITE UP THEIR ASS WITH THEIR OWN SILVER SPOONS!
42) Have you ever fired a gun: Everything but an actual ballistic weapon (so nerf guns, paintball guns, airsoft)
43) Are you missing someone: Yes
44) Say something totally random about yourself:
45) Do you have an ipod: Yes and I think it hates me
46) Has anyone ever said you looked like a celeb: Recently people say I either look like Jim Morrison or a young Roger Daltrey
47) Whats your computer's name: *looks at the sticker he put on it* Limozeen, I guess.
48) Who would you like to see right now: umm...hm...
49) Favorite band of all time: Rush
50) Dogs or cats: Either/or
51) Have you ever been caught doing something you weren't supposed to be doing: Maybe
52) Favorite flower: uh, hrm...
53) Butter, plain, or salted popcorn: Butter
54) What books are you reading: Stuff by Ian Rankin
55) Have you ever ridden in a limo: YEAH! ...YEAH!
56) Has anyone you were really close to passed away: My best friend's dad
57) Do you watch MTV: PFFT. You wish
58) What's something that really bugs you: People who mistake opinions for facts
59) What are some things you really like doing: Videogames, writing, sex
60) 9: You fail. (NO, YOU FAIL!)
61) Can you dance: I'm white and nerdy, so no.
62) Favorite soccer team: Uh...New England Revolution...why not.
63) Favorite beverage: Dr. Pepper, or when it's in season, Sierra Mist Cranberry Splash
64) Do you drive: Yes, and I can't drive 55
65) What's the latest you have ever stayed out: uh...dunno
66) Last time you went bowling: couple years back maybe
67) Were you ever rushed by an ambulance into the emergency room: Nope
68) Who was your last phone call: My parents letting them know i got back to school ok.
69) Last time you were at work: Today I guess
70) What's your favorite country to be in: USA! USA! US...A?

So this term i'm doing a major group project that involves working with 4 other people to create a game. Already I'm having my misgivings because I don't think what we're making will actually be a game (puzzle games are hard to make, esp. when you try to innovate), and to be fair I enjoy action more...but whatever, I was talked into accepting this so fine, I'm ok with that.

What I'm not ok with is the fact that nobody seems to have remembered we actually have to have a challenge, I even brought up this misgiving to my roommate, who is in the group, and he's like "I don't care"

Well you fucking should care! This is our grade at stake, as well as the grades of the other people in the group! What the fuck would make you not care about that especially when we're trying to prove we actually can do work!?

Arrgh.  

I get down on myself a lot for not being able to write music, and yet I just realized it might not matter. After all, Nickelback released an album where 90% of the songs were the same damn chords only with key changes, and that sold well.

And I actually like Nickelback, but still, the fact that "Animals" and "Sign of a Bullet" sound like the same song until the lyrics start, well... 

Apparently there was gang-related violence on Highland Street tonight (Highland Street being one of the four streets that encircle the WPI Campus. 4 people were shot on or near that street. A bit freaky when I think about it but then again I was spending the night indoors anyway.   

So I finally caved in to all the pressure (percieved) on me and asked Kate out. No it wasn't the first thing I said in our morning conversation, it was more of the last, and it was offering to ask her out to dinner. Of course, predictably, she said "Well I am seeing someone," but she said she'd love to anyway.

So yeah, she is seeing someone...guess I should've abandoned all hope a bit sooner.

I'm not too disheartened though...

So anyway the costume issue is resolved, thanks to iParty (or is it I-Party...will Mac sue them? who can say? DUN DUN DUNNNHHHH). Now all I have are all the other issues...like the one where i haven't done my "sit on my ass somewhere outside and write about what i see" assignment for Creative Writing, but that's like a 10 minute thing anyway.

Also my calendar looks like it has a gun design drawn on it now thanks to how i coincidentally posted things to it this month.  

For Halloween my roommate and I came up with an interesting concept. I'd be a ninja, he'd be a pirate, and all day we'd end up fighting each other across campus. Like fight club, only not really fight club.

Point is, that requires me to get a costume together. Now of course this would be the time wherin my "ninja hood" ski mask goes missing once again. Well, shit. Now of course I could just do the ol' "shirt ninja" thing, unfortunately to some that tends to look less like a ninja hood and more like you're an Arab Terrorist. Then again i'm sure if i tucked the extraneous shirt parts into my shirt i'm wearing it wouldn't look as bad. Who knows, I sure don't.

On another note I was thinking of using UnderArmour to best replicate typical ninja garb...too bad that shit's fucking expensive even if my mom is giving me money for said costuming.

-So why the hell didn't I get my paycheck this week? Have I eaten too much at McDonalds? damnit that's probably it.

-Where the hell is this "nude Italy" this woman is apparently a "miss" of? Is there like a parallel Earth where everyone is naked? That'd be pretty scary actually...some people should NOT be seen without clothes...most of Europe for example...yet they keep DOING it!

-How is it that every time they want to show an animal as "scarred" or "rugged" in a disney movie/show they usually have a  perfectly circular chunk taken out in one of the edges of their ears? How did that happen? An accident with a hole puncher? Damnit lazy Disney animators, there are OTHER shapes! I think triangles would be more likely!

Projected expenses over next 10 days

Gas: $30-$60
Doctor's appointment: $20
Presrcibed Wellbutrin: $25
License Renewal Fees: $60
Birthday gifts for both my mother AND brother: $50-100

Total: $185-$260

Money in my account right now: $230...if that.

And I haven't even factored in textbooks.

The life, of a college student.

So yesterday I finally talked to Kate. I was in a hurry before having to go to work so basically the entire conversation lasted an elevator trip.

***

Me: How are you doing today?
Kate: Good, I'm officially on Vacation now
Me: That's good.
Kate: How about you?
Me: I have a final at 2, and I have to get to work soon.
Kate: Where do you work?
Me: I have a lab monitor job at the computer lab in Higgins.
Kate: Ah that's cool.
Me: eh it's all right.

*pause*

Me: Anyway...I uh...*struggles for words*. I know that next term our course schedules change so we won't be running into each other this conveniently anymore, and I really like talking to you, so is there any way we can stay in touch?
Kate: Well, you know where my room is right?
Me: Nope.
Kate: It's room 302. You can drop by there any time.
Me: Really?
Kate: Yep *slight smile*
Me: Ok then. Thank you. See you after break.
Kate: you too.

***

So yeah, don't know how best to interpret that but it's good to know i can keep talking to her and eventually find out things.

There is nothing more unnerving than a courteous gun turret, i.e. one with an AI who politely says "hello" before opening fire on you and then says things like "I don't blame you" when you've forced it to shut down.

Portal is such a fun/funny game

So I was talking to Kate today before her Macroeconomics final, just shooting the breeze, asking her about what year she's in, what courses she's taking next term, me retelling what an epic failure i was in B term last year...stuff like that.

Then I looked down. And for the first time in a goddamn month...i notice she's wearing a ring. On her left hand, and it has a gemstone in it. Granted it's a small one and probably a cubic zirconia but it's a ring nonetheless.

Fortunately I didn't immediately panic and stop talking to her, nor did I do the stupid thing of asking "so who's the lucky guy?" and pointing to it. But yeah...I felt like a fool. Especially since not more than an hour ago she had smiled at me when passing me on the way to her class when i was leaving mine.

Now granted, maybe the ring doesn't mean she's taken, could have another meaning for her. Just...yeah. Ah well, at least I'll know why i'm being shot down in 2 days time.

My English teach cancelled our final quiz. I don't even have to get up at 7AM (well I kinda do) on Thursday. I'm so happy right now. This means I am officially DONE with school save for my Economics Final on Thursday.

So yeah, slept past my alarm AGAIN, almost got fired as a result, and missed one of my 2 remaining opportunities to try and convince Kate to exchange contact information with me so we can stay in touch or w/e after our course schedules change.

so today is the day I have to do my final play project with my group for Drama. We're doing scenes from The Laramie Project, ironically, the play I would've done in High School had time not ran out. I wish we HAD done it...it's a very emotionally powerful play about what hate can do to people, and how it can come from unlikely sources.

In it, I play 4 characters, all of numerous backgrounds and sexual orientations. One of them is the crazy-ass so-called "Reverend" Fred Phelps, leader of the hate group known as the Westboro Baptist Church. Basically he's the guy who hates America for being tolerant of Gay People...and jewish people...and the irish...ok basically let's just say he hates people. Crazy...CRAZY motherfucker, and I won't get into details. But basically I wondered this...if he hates America so much...WHY THE FUCK DOES HE LIVE HERE? Oh right, so he can "protest" at soldiers funerals that they "died because of fags". Uh-huh...right. I wish I had known the time these hatemongers had been around in Massachusetts...woulda hit all of them with my truck.  

Ok I seriously need a soundtrack going in my head 24/7 if my roommate is going to talk about World of Warcraft 24/7. All I hear is "DPS this" and "spec that" ....blah.